I'm a boudoir photographer, but I'm also a woman
I'm Paige, the Owner and Photographer of SeduXion Studio.
I'm a woman in a modern world. I've had fluctuating weight, ongoing body dysmorphia, struggled with my self identity, struggled with accepting my sexuality, fought for my health and dealt with chronic illnesses and pain...
It might sound cheesy, but I am a woman just like you.
2010
The start of symptoms
I was a tween, got my period and started having severe pain, nausea, bowel and bladder issues, fatigue, heavy bleeding and so many more debilitating symptoms.
For years, I was trialed on different birth controls and my weight fluctuated constantly. It was a constant up and down battle with my body.
2017
Diagnostic Laparoscopy
After 7 years of fighting pain, weight fluctuations, pain, fainting, vomiting, being dismissed by doctors, so many ER visits, being carried because I couldn't walk, sleeping on the bathroom floor. I finally was scheduled in for my diagnostic laparoscopy and confirmed my Endometriosis diagnosis.
It felt like a relief and heavy burden at the same time. After years of fighting my body, I finally had an answer.
2019
Excision Surgery
I researched my butt off after my diagnosis and scheduled an appointment with an Endometriosis specialist. I had surgery and was also diagnosed with Adenomyosis and PCOS as well. My Endometriosis was removed, significant scar tissue removed and multiple organs were detached as they'd stuck together.
2023
CPTSD Diagnosis
I started seeing a new therapist in 2022. We talked a lot about my abusive childhood and the impact of that trauma. I felt that trauma in my body all the time, I felt driven by survival mode and felt like my body didn't belong to me. That I had no power over my own body. That was a really hard thing to talk about and accept.
In 2022, I officially got the new tab to my book of body image horrors, CPSTD.
Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is a really hard diagnosis to come to terms with. I'm not a war vet, I'm not in war zones. I wasn't experiencing severely violent acts every single day. I couldn't wrap my head around it and it took me even further away from my body.
2025
Auto Immune Diagnosis
In 2024, I lost a lot of weight. Over 40kg in a year. I wasn't doing anything specific, I wasn't trying to lose weight. Honestly, I think it had a lot to do with nervous system regulation and losing inflammation in my body. It's been a struggle, I don't love all of my body and I feel like a different person in my body. Body dysmorphia can be really hard.
I was due for a cervical screening and I had to get a few biopsies done due to persistent rashes on my body. I thankfully did not have cancer, but I was diagnosed with an auto-immune condition called Lichen Sclerosis. Which primarily affects women in peri-menopause and increases my chances of reproductive related cancers, especially if I was to experience child birth.
That's a hard pill to swallow... That having a baby would increase my risk even more.
The truth?
All of this shit was hardddd. I was truly burnt the fuck out for years, moving like a cloud through life. Over the years, I've felt so disconnected from my body. From myself. I didn't know who I was under all of the diagnosis' and the trauma.
My body felt like it wasn't mine for over 20 years. I felt like I was floating through life, not being fully present or able to remember. My body remembered all of the abuse, I was in pain constantly, I would always overload my plate. At one time I was working 4 jobs, struggling to stay above water.
All of that took me further and further out of my body.
I won't lie, sometimes I still feel very disconnected from my body. I still look at myself in the mirror and feel like I'm looking at a stranger. Looking at something gross.
Something I've had to learn over the years is that... True, deep healing takes time. And ohhhh man, I hated that when I heard it. I thought it was bullshit, it frustrated me. I wanted a quick, easy fix.
Loving your body is hard
Even if you've never had any health issues, chronic illnesses or injuries... Being a woman in today's world and truly LOVING your body, is a constant and exhausting battle.
The societal expectations on how we should look, how we should feel about our bodies, what we should be doing to "glow up" is constant and it's shown everywhere.
Loving your body is fucking hard. Loving your body takes a lot of work. It's not as simple as waking up one day and the switch has flipped to 100% self love mode. (I know we all wish it was that easy!)
There's days we hate our bodies, our bodies betray us with pain and flares.
There's days where we feel disconnected from our bodies and we struggle to come back and be present.
There's days where we genuinely are feeling ourselves and everything we wear feels amazing.
No matter what size you wear, the colour of your skin, the way people feel about you, the background you have... We all understand the struggle of how hard it is to love your body.
We all deserve to feel beautiful and confident and sexy all the time. But honestly, that's not a reality.
What helped me?
- Regular Therapy
- Somatic Movement/Stretching/Releases
- Finding ways I love to move my body as exercise (not what's "popular or trending" right now)
- Grounding meditations (outside on grass or sand at the beach)
- Journalling and Brain Dumping
- EFT Tapping for rewiring my views on body image and nervous system regulations
what did NOT help?
- Pushing through discomfort or pain
- Ignoring my body's signals
- Avoiding healing trauma and health issues
- Constantly talking negative about my body
- Wearing clothes that I hated and were uncomfortable
- Avoiding uncomfortable/hard conversations about body diversity
In a world of everyone trying to look "perfect", let's break apart the mould by speaking the real, raw truth.
Let's create beautiful art.
Let's capture you
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